Losing My Early Twenties to Crystal Meth

I don’t want to sound like I’m teaching health class, but the choices you make in your twenties really do lay the foundation for the rest of your life; and believe me when I tell you that the more extreme the choices , the more extreme the consequences. I started smoking pot when I was sixteen, and should have stopped there. People still say that pot is a gateway drug, but my theory is that if someone is morbidly curious enough to try weed, they’re kind of predisposed to try harder drugs like pills or meth—this was certainly the case for me. There was no special chemical reaction in my brain that made me want to push the drug abuse envelope; just a general curiosity that had always been there.

It was the stupidest thing I had ever done, but I first tried crystal meth in pill form about two months shy of my 21st birthday. I wanted to feel something that I’d never felt before and this drug certainly allowed for that. I started taking it on a regular basis after I moved out of my parents’ house. I can scarcely describe the intense happiness I felt after taking meth for the first time. Words fail to do it justice. Unfortunately this love affair was all too brief, and meth began taking more out of me than I ever thought possible.

Although I’ve been clean for a little over four years, you can still see the toll that meth took on my face from when I was actively using: my broken teeth, the marks on my skin, the sunken eyes, etc. These are both sad reminders of my past and motivators for my future. When you’re forced to confront the results of your behavior first thing every morning, it can be incredibly illuminating. Most drug rehab centers won’t tell you how to get your good looks back once you’re in recovery. Luckily my face is slowly starting to clear up and doesn’t look as nearly as bad as it once did.

My addiction to meth lasted for two years before a blackout forced me into treatment. I don’t know if it was fate or the cosmos stepping in at this point in my life, but something kept from dying and scared me enough to get clean. Initially when I was looking for drug rehab centers, I was looking for a place that guaranteed a pain-free detox—these don’t exist, despite any promises they may make. I’m just grateful for the treatment center that I actually did choose for making me as comfortable as possible during my detox and rehab. Not once did I feel like I was in incapable or malicious hands.

I finished treatment and slowly started repairing my life. It’s been a long and ultimately rewarding journey on which I’m grateful for the opportunity to embark. My goal is to one day have the mistakes of my past far behind me, but close enough to stay on the right track.

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